You know how some people say that they randomly open up their Bible and read something that was meant for them. I think that most verses in the Bible can speak to your heart in several ways.

My Bible was dropped on the floor by one of my munchkins today and the pages were all folded up so when I opened my Bible it was in Proverbs 16.  It spoke to me and maybe it will speak to you.

Proverbs 16

"To man belong the plans of the heart,
but from the Lord comes the reply of the tongue.

All a man's ways seem innocent to him
but motives are weighed by the Lord.

Commit to the Lord whatever you do,
and your plans will succeed.

The Lord works out everything for his own ends
even the wicked for a day of disaster.

(skip to v 9)
In his heart a man plans his course,
but the Lord determines his steps"

If you want to read the whole passage, you know where to find it.

I needed to hear this today.  I needed to be reminded that God is ultimately in control and He has plans for us.

Today my patient that I have been taking care of for the last three years passed away.  He was such a sweet elderly man. I am sad to see him go but glad that he isn't suffering anymore. I will miss him.  He turned into a family member. My kids loved him and he loved my kids. I couldn't of asked for a better job. I was able to bring Jesi with me until she was 8 months old.  I had a flexible schedule and it provided for our family. It was a place where I could do my homework.

So now what? Back to the grind of the ER? Back to working graveyard? ehhh! I don't know. I don't really want to think about it tonight.

I'm not going to lie, I am glad that I don't have to go to work tomorrow.  I can stay home with my babies.

But for now I am jobless and Danny's temp job with the city ended a month ago.

Looks like I will be entering into my 30's as a broke, unemployed college student, mother of three.

Can you tell that I am having a little bit of a pity party for myself.  I think it is time to hibernate to my bed for the night and maybe read this passage again.